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4 days break

October 15, 2007

Can be described in one word SIEN..

Sitting at home, cannot lepak also as in the same time have tons of assignment to finish. This semester is kinda tough. No joke man. Just sitting in the class alone make me wonder  why am i getting myself into. So much of shit can be seen flying around.

Last week itself i accidentally make a gal cried in my class. I can say that i am not feeling guilty as i think that gal is a psycho by the way. Getting along with her also can make you get crazy in the same time. Well come on la, if syok sendiri then find others to blame la.. The miriacle there is, i not only does nothing but also i had not been in contact verbally, mentally or even physically with her for a long long time.. Don misunderstand, physical contact mean brutally ok.. not that kinda thing…

When i start to think back about the incident, i feel so stupid that i am being dragged in to the center of attention. Well i wanna keep a low profile, of course there are more than 10 fingers count who know me in a good or bad term out there. I think i had gained enough popularity and that’s enough. You and your bf also the same one la.. both had the same syndrome which  only both of you know. Else how to get together and live under the same roof la.. Correct or not la..

magnetic materials assignment will be settled today. Well i cant drag any longer. time and tide waits for no man.. but time of a man can be wasted on a woman’s hand they come and mess with us.. sounds damn stupid but its damn true..

To those fortunate.

October 13, 2007

Hitting by a lorry 5 tons in weight definitely cause damage to the whole car. And yet here, there are only some minor damage as fortunately it hits the hard part of the car which is the car wheel base.

Some one who had just misunderstood that i am stabbing behind her back is also involved in the accident. Well i dunno if it is good for her but redefined her character to me, which means i knw who the hell and how and what kinda people is she. Well thanks to the situation also. Now i will have a list which is she on the top of the list that things and person that you can actually DON GIVE A DAMN TO. Have to congratulate her as it’s kinda hard for me to enlist someone on it even to my ex-gf who broke my heart and yet she is still nt listed as one.

TOTAL BITCH gets her place in the list..

The other 3 escaped with some minor injuries and i would conclude saying that they are all fine. Just be more careful in the future. The accident gave me some inspiration to present on something similar to it soon. Below are some of the photo taken from a camera phone of a gal named YING..

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U read and U comment..

October 11, 2007

Management class is the time where i give my fullest and the deepest thought as it related to the environment and not the text alone. Well pinging the piece of my mind is not wrong i guess.

Being knows as the crapper in the class and make the class to laugh in the end makes some to feel jealous and threatened. Well i think i am just being myself and there is nothing that you can change or do to make things to gets better as i don wanna be a pathetic person like what i used to be when i just broke up in february. my life is filled with colour and i respect others to respect me as i respect them as well.

what is the point throwing tantrums and making noise and try to influence others as i think those who knew me knows me well that i am like this since the first semester. i am kinda upset when i hear that you actually cried as this matters haunts you or whatsoever. I am practically ok and happy with the new semester and i do not hope that things gets ruined just because you are not happy with me.  i am leading my life and i don think i cross the border also messing up with you.

what is the point messing up with what i have now. I don have any extra that you not have. just that perhaps i may have the ability to make the class to be more lively and lecturer to “know me” as i am the one always giving him headache and sensitive question for him to answer. apart from that, i am cool.. i just did my part.

and you had an accident today. just out of concern i went to see you and what your bf said is very uncultured and uncivilized. well, you may not know when you need each other and from now on i know that caring and being concern is a loss to me. so there is no need in the future, i mean in the far future to even care for you. being 6 feet under perhaps u will not see my presence also. and there are the people which doesn’t know the real world and fails to appreciate the counter part.

well to be frank la… you make me lose face and talk bad about me in front of our classmates and you even have a meeting with them, to say that i am actually in a wrong position and ask them all to hate me. what is all these? even in the uni junction after you met with an accident i still bother to ask how you are and if i hated you for god sake i will treat you invisible.  You are so immature ok. very very much infact. i am not asking you to be grateful but if this is another person, they won bother to come and see you sick and injured face in the ward bed. I just did my part, and thou your rich bf throw such word to me, i am pretty fine with it as for me it is just another part of life that we have to face. Nothing for me to keep in my heart. there are so much of beautiful things that i still need to keep space to store it.

well you have to get adjusted to the environment and not otherwise. i am still the me.. you wanna whack and talk bad it’s up to you.. KARMA is the word for all …

Gals Are scary

September 29, 2007

After comparing the results with the rest of the classmates as well as fac mates. Many of them that i knew that study like hell got a very good result.. One of them is the one that broke my heart and she is being self orientated.

SHe only think to be happy and this make her concentrate more on her studies. Perhaps this semester i should think on myself only la.. As to her and others, my feeling is not important at all. So why shall i care for others feeling when they don even pay a single attention on mine.

So the key to good results is.. I must be emotionally stable this semester and forget about the breakup which almost breaks me up. 4As is not sufficient to cover the damage done by 2 great Cs.

This sem is tough and i shall be able to cope.. Nothing is harder than an envy heart seeing others securing good result while you are aside weeping for Cs. I am becoming a very boring guy. Thing shall change from today.

One fine Morning

September 29, 2007

At this one fine morning, just before i wake up I was buzzed by a sms who comes in without me asking which sounded this way…

Pls stop being childish as for leaving the gate open. Its out neighbor who tells me during the hols where you guys were home that a suspicious guy peep inside the house blah blah blah..

Hey stupid, why don you tells us in advance. If don tell how people know. Thought you are in deans list, so what.. You communication skills is worst than a toddler. They cry when they want something. We dunno what you want as you are in your little world there.

And also stop harassing me via sms.. I deserve more than that as i am a malaysia citizen as well.. Anything that i am not happy about you i am keeping myself quiet. Why cant you? I have nothing worth to be confiscated from you as you took away the most precious thing in my life. YOU KNOW WHAT. don waste your money smsing shit to me.. My mobile only received honey sweet messages + sugar based products.. Apart from that, its in my blacklist and i will delete without even reading… As i know nothing good came after all.. So get lost …

Results Day

September 27, 2007

Well i finally got my result in hand today. It is just a 0.04 for me to be in the second class upper categories and i am happy with what i get so far. Coping with some emotional distortion last semester making me barely getting and having my attention on my studies. I guess the work and hard deeds finally pays off.

So I here make a wow that in this semester, the remaining 12 weeks will see me as a person who fights for all i can for marks and grades. With all these it will only make me feel more satisfied as i screwed up 2 papers which i think i shall not. Very very disappointing.

In future i guess there will be more updates on my studies other than craps.. so wish me luck out there. I wanna be a useful person not a useless one… I am aiming for the best this semester…

Miss Yamuna Farewell

September 26, 2007

We had a lunch reception for Miss Yamuna and below are some photos on the farewell. I took a number of photos and these are those which i think related to this post.

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Miss Yamuna Last day

September 24, 2007

Today is Miss Yamuna last day, which marked the end of her service in AIMST University. She has been here since i joined AIMST in 2005. I still remember, when i first met her, i was introduced by Dr Khong Y.L who happens to be my mentor back in my year one. He however left us in Year 2006 joining Wawasan Open University. He is now an executive in First Solar, the same company where Miss Yamuna is going to..

Talking about her, in year 1 she is very helpful especially during Physics and Chemistry Lab. When comes to year 2, we have this Materials Analysis Technique lab where I am running a sample using AAS, i make a sample to be contaminated which in the end make me to extend my lab hours and when i realized that, it was already 5.20pm and here Miss Yamuna offered to stay extra hours and I was feeling grateful for that.. That was the most memorable event as the same day, i dropped my rice packet and making me to starve a little for that night. And also, that was the time where people who I thought are friends give me a tight slap on me. And I am practically alone and i dare not to trust anyone just like that. So what happened on April – August 2007 semester had a deep impression in me.

When she told me that she is leaving for Industries early this month, I thought that she was joking with me. I once misunderstood that she is leaving and when she insists that she weren’t joking,I start to see that I or we are losing a good Scientific Officer that could guide us for our Final Year Project. Just deep inside, I hope that she found her way out there and if time permits, we will have a farewell just for you miss.. I enjoy the Ups and Downs being with her..

My new home

September 24, 2007

WordPress is now my new home for blogging.. It is suppose to be a personal site and blogging make others to have a different point of view from a different angle from people.  However, it turns out sour when the flow of thoughts is terminated over excessive harassments from the readers.

I personally do not think this is a right things to do as i myself is a blogger and the pain and tense over contents being questioned whether is it relevant to them makes blogging a threat to me.

This is one of the main reason i am diverting to WP and to be more careful with my readers in the future…

Monthly Expenses…

September 22, 2007

When come to the end of the month, pocket money sponsored my F-M scholarship is drying and as usual, parents will ask whether we need extra or not. Charm.. This is all i have left for today but it does not make me unhappy either as this will test my endurance of being a a condition where money is limited. hahaa.. well well. lets see how long this amount of money can last ….

Of course i have some back up in the bank as well as my coins, it should be enough for me to last until early next week. As usual my dad will call me and ask whether i need extra and the same answer is that i will ask the amount that i need. Of course today i spend the whole day calculation and predicting the expenditure for the next month.

Prediction is never accurate but its better than nothing…. What took most of the toll in the expenditure is the house bills and rent… BIG chunk went there… Food comes second followed by petrol and Phone bills comes third and entertainment comes last.

A part from that i have nothing extra to spend on as most of the time i will be home and go out yum char occasionally. Just when a fren from KL came, spend on good food and some signature dish makes life a lil happier.

MONEY is not everything. Me having enough is suffice.. Not asking to be a millionaire but if i am destined to be….
i will repay to those that have favored me no matter how, who and where they are..

***My head is about to break.. FYP journals cant be accessed and Metals and Alloys assignment is turning the internet to be a dustbin… Full of rubbish..