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April 14, 2007
While sipping my freshly boiled coffee, under the shadow of the florescent light in Winchem (Malaysia) Sdn Bhd, it was a very relaxing feeling to know that the training here is coming to the end and the suffering has just started.

Why am I saying so is… during the entire of the training, I truly gained a lot in the same time I lost many things subsequently and I am taking I calmly at the moment without having to be frustrated as I know deep inside that I will gain back what I have lost before this in a greater payback. Who know by sacrificing the private life thing may get a little better as the focus weight are more on other subjects.

This entire period make me realize the importance of an attachment. Of course to those who are working on their relationship, all the best to them but in the same time to those who are making life difficult to others, May god bless you. Even though things are destined to be at times but to cause a mess and havoc to other using word of discouragement and dissatisfaction will lead to an unhappy life if the party gets to know on what is actually happening.

Definitely the truth will always be siding the right ones. To encourage and to help other may eventually assist in making life to be a bit easier. Having me to know truth upon my recovery make me think if I have the right person for me to trust. Definitely I have but I am still waiting for God the almighty to show me the right one.

At time I can help feeling lonely as part of mine has been attached to someone dearly and mistakes that I does is I do not know who to express my love to her making her to think that I actually do not love her. Haha..big mistakes huh…There are many reason for me to stay but still I will be alone at home. Therefore, leaving the place a while to get myself around the country seems the best and the right choice. As today, this may be the last post that I will post for now as I don’t know even when I will be back entertaining my soul with things that I normally do.
Just I hope that after I make my comeback, I am expecting myself to change for better. Still the wounded I still have a long way to go. And for sure I know I am getting wiser and stronger by day.. This period of time has really make me to see through thing and I have to be thankful to people who chatted to me personally, via messenger as well as those who called and I called. You guys really make me realize who the heck is with me and against me..

Definitely things will change after this and I myself how much the changes will take place.. too subjective and its just too early to tell..

Life ..2

April 5, 2007
Parting with someone u love and care will never be a good experience especially when u felt that u are so in love and attached with that person, starting to love and see future.. Well thats just part of it. Time to start a new life thou what that I experience may be harsh and painful.. As the day passes, I just can hope it will eventually gets better.

Tears that ran down as waterfalls will eventually reach a place called river. When the heart says its enough, the river of tears will eventually turn into drops and then dried off. Life is very unpredictable as well. There will be thousand perhaps million of ups and downs. This cant be foreseen.

Friend around are supportive while family will let us handle our own. For them its not their business. Its our business. Those friends, U know who u are.

Thanks a million….

Life

April 3, 2007
Life is a path given by God, the path that determine the destiny of a person. Here are a few indication being indicated in a different way.

Single person waits for the right one to come. As in waiting to board the bus. Sometimes you dunno which bus to board and if you do, the bus you expect did not turn up hence end up taking another bus. Even you board the right bus, eventually it breaks down terminating the journey. Only the right bus with the excellent condition enable the passenger to reach the destination.

However, this waiting for bus business has make many people to suffocate and yet they choose to take the fast way, to take taxi. In my case, I dunno what to take instead I take a car as its more flexible and convenient. I may be tired of waiting for the bus that i wanted to arrive.. It has been quite sometime, disappointments and frustrations are countless.

Disagreement and misunderstanding between the drivers of the buses can make the passenger to lose in direction. A small misunderstanding can make the bus to be stalled in the middle of the journey. This will hurt and make the passenger upset. Some find it hard to get up and some find it hard to be theirself as their life at the moment is so attached to the comfort and cozy environment that the bus offers.. Make it hard to leave..

Many will choose to leave the bus, and those who stays in the horrific condition will be marked as nuisance and stupid.. But they choose to stay as they may think there are still hope and shine within it. Thou they know the shine and hope will vanish when the day comes, still…. they want the hope to be buried with them when they passed away..

To them.. life is a journey,, full of wonders.. many are being kept alive by hope and prayers.. I am one of them… hoping for a better tomorrow makes me do and try my best today… to secure a better tomorrow.. even i fails… I will get up and try, as I know there are still hope as long as I am still have my breath in me..